August 23, 2018

I have decided patience is my least favorite virtue.

Self-control can be a bit challenging, but sure, bring it on. Humility? No problem, I’m a danger to myself on that one. Gentleness? A work in progress.

But patience? Do I have to?

So often I find myself wedged between the almost and not yet, clambering, clawing, reaching, trying, so desperately, to get out.

I don’t want to be here! Let me out! I scream, for no better reason than the one stated: I just don’t want to be there.

I don’t want...

July 15, 2018

It blows my mind how much can change in a year.

A year ago today, I was scared I'd lose my ability to walk. My body in many ways was rebelling against me and my lower back, after years of athletic injuries and abuse, was giving up. As I was coping with that struggle; the pain, the treatment, the recovery & healing, I wrote this post, and was nervous how people would respond all the way until I hit publish. 

A little over a year ago, I landed a dream of a job I was never looking for. 

A year ago, I...

July 7, 2018

I have always felt my most at home on the water. It's there I feel my most vulnerable, my most exposed, most honest and most care-free. 

There is something about the water that is so alluring, that brings me back down, reminds me that I am oh-so-small and that there is a greater power constantly working around me. I love the way the water breathes; 

up and down 

up and down,

softly raising and dropping shells, ships, and me. Other times, its force is catastrophic, tearing up homes, ruining...

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